Believe It Or Not - THE TRUTH WILL PREVAIL
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Labels: after life, analogy, cultures, humanity, love, NDE, predestined, relegion, spirit
This something I wrote recently. My diary has been misplaced actually since I have come back to Bombay. So out of my old stuff what ever I will keep coming across I'll keep udating it here. Simultaneously, I will be adding whatever new excerpts I write. This write-up is basically the struggle of a broken heart trying to deny still bein in love with the person who has broken it. It is a blend of confused emotions, broken promises and a longing to find love again.
I'll Never Know
I often sit and wonder how real is love and the conclusion is always ?uh huh? ?umm? ?err?. It?s funny how we all talk about love and yet don?t know for sure how true it is. In some cases love is the basis of everything in life, those I guess are the ?lucky few?. For love I say has never been true to me. Is it my bad luck or maybe I am just not lovable enough?
Time and again I ask myself, will I ever find love or worse still will love ever find me? Has my heart surpassed the need for love; after all the pain it caused, for all the nights that I cried myself to sleep or for all the times that it hurt so bad within I thought I?d never survive? Can that be a possibility? My mind repeatedly brings back those past memories of ache and upset. Frequently forcing me to ask myself- was it just that I was with the wrong person or did it just seem so real because it never actually was?
I guess I?ll never know the answers to these questions but I always mange to come above them. I manage to smile and feel good about myself and about love, however ironic that may sound. Because in my heart I will always know that through all the tears, even if just for a moment, the both of us --- had it all..................
Labels: ache, confused, emotions, luck, memories, mind, tears
Hello People!!!
This is a small write- up I wrote after almost a year had passed and my phase of depression was at its peak. (if you refer to some previous posts I have published I have explained my problems with addiction and then rebuke from my friends,this is a follow up of that) Everything was a mess as I was struggling to combat my addiction and the withdrawal symtoms which were like the compulsory blind and at the same time I had realised people who I called my best friends turned out be worse than enemies. It was hard tp push away thoughts suicide or harming myself in some or the other way amidst all this mess, that is when I decided to turn to my only resort; WRITING. So here goes.......
What Do You Do
A million hopes are relying on you, a hundred smiles smile for you, if not for you some people would not wanna live, if not for you, your parents wouldn?t have sacrificed their desires, if not for you your father would come home early and rest rather than work overtime. If not for you your mother would not sit at home awaiting for you to return whether in school, whether in college, whether down to play or out on a outing whether your working, how ever big you get it still wont make your mother sleep till your not tucked in bed. So if at times you feel your lfe is just not going antywhere, that you would rather die than face your problems, what do you do?
So in the end the thing to do is simple yet hard. Coz it?s the simple things in life that matter.So you have to smile no matter what and you have to keep moving on, for your parents who brought you here and did everything for you, without any fear. You have to live, you have work and become a person pf scruples and principles. Coz in the end it doesn?t matter what you have, but what you chose to do with that what you had.After a while you will realize that even when you thought you couldn?t go on, you did and you feel glad you did. We don?t regret the things we do as much as we regret that which we dont do..So next time your heart asks you what to do, do just this, go to your parents hug them tight, and your heart will know you did it right.
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FRIENDSHIP, one of the most cherished of all relations. Two people from separate worlds, castes, backgrounds and not related by blood, easily understand each other. The love they share is far above every other relationship in the whole world. It could not get better than this. Imagine your friend & u so far apart from each other in perception, ideas, personality and mind frame are still closer than peas in a pod. I will be presenting ahead a small compilation on friends that I call “Friends of Our Lives”.
If ever the need arises, friends give their life for each other without any complaint or hesitation. Friends are mirrors, who are a reflection of the person that stays in us. It’s only with a friend that you can be yourself. However stupid you may sound about certain things your friend will always listen patiently. Even if you keep crying like a broken record, your friend will wipe your tears all the times you do. If at times you don’t feel like talking, your friend will sit by your site quietly but not leave you.
A Friend is God’s gift to Life. So you better handle your gifts with care. Unfortunately in most cases that I have seen, people realize what they have let go off only after losing their closest friend/friends. Well, it doesn’t mean that you’ll have to be sugary. Just be yourself. I mean everyone has their own share of arguments and quarrels. It’s a natural phenomenon and a healthy one at that. Where there is love, there is room for some problems and misunderstandings as well. Moreover the world we live in gets shallower day by day.
The trust two people share play a major role in changing and breaking friendships. However, it even depends on how credible your friend thinks you are. If your closest friend is filled in by a third party (irrespective of whether the source is credible or not) that you have snitched about that friend secretively. Your friend has two options, though being your closet pal that stage shouldn’t otherwise arise.However if your friend doesn’t believe then it will only make your bond a 100 times stronger. But if your friend chooses to believe, BAAM!! It’s the beginning of your end with your friend. When doubt seeps in your friends mind regarding you, it only means trouble, more trouble & even more trouble.
I will explain it in a simpler way. A sky scraper 105 stories strong is only cement mixed with water with out its foundation. If the foundation happens to deteriorate the 105 story building would crumble into a pile of fine dust. In the same way trust is the foundation of friendship. Doubt is the first step towards distrust. Hence if the foundation gets weak and shaken the relation will just shatter to pieces.Trust is what holds the relation and pulls it together.
If your friends can believe others over you then your friend never deserved you to begin with. You should be thankful to those that save you from such toxic friends. Even if you were to give your friend benefit of doubt, anyone genuine enough who would really give importance to your friendship will always approach you and will want to hear the truth from the horse’s mouth itself.If ever you have come across such a friend or if god forbid you ever happen to please do remember that reality is not what we perceive it to be, but, unfortunately reality is bitter & most of us don’t genuinely realize it. We live in a world of illusions, where everything is based on hope, where faith can move mountains, where god sees all and knows all and bad times are followed by good times. Beware of friends who are all talk and no show, they are the ones to be wary of..
GOOD TIME CHARLIE!
If the previous type of friends disheartened you then you better get your act together before venturing ahead..
The worst kind of betrayal or usually given by friends who are closest. But, this is My Personal Opinion. The best way to find out who your real friends are is during the time of a crisis. It’s an old saying, “When a ship is sinking, the 1st one to leave is the rat”. Its really heartening to find out that if god forbid you were to be stuck in a life & death situation, with minimum chances of survival, & at that point, your best friend, childhood chum, buddy, pal whatever you may call them were to leave you in the middle of nowhere and then without looking back even once, would walk away forever, what would be your plight?
Well I’ll tell you from experience. You won’t mind dying physically when you you’ve already died from within. That’s exactly how I felt. I hope it doesn’t ever happen to anyone. Please be wise in choosing your friends and even wiser in selecting whom to trust.I hope this article has served some purpose for at least one person.
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