My Diary : ~~ WHaT Do You Do ~~

Hello People!!!

This is a small write- up I wrote after almost a year had passed and my phase of depression was at its peak. (if you refer to some previous posts I have published I have explained my problems with addiction and then rebuke from my friends,this is a follow up of that) Everything was a mess as I was struggling to combat my addiction and the withdrawal symtoms which were like the compulsory blind and at the same time I had realised people who I called my best friends turned out be worse than enemies. It was hard tp push away thoughts suicide or harming myself in some or the other way amidst all this mess, that is when I decided to turn to my only resort; WRITING. So here goes.......

What Do You Do

You smile though within your actually dying, you keep moving on when your heart you know cant go on, coz if you don?t do all this then what do you do?

A million hopes are relying on you, a hundred smiles smile for you, if not for you some people would not wanna live, if not for you, your parents wouldn?t have sacrificed their desires, if not for you your father would come home early and rest rather than work overtime. If not for you your mother would not sit at home awaiting for you to return whether in school, whether in college, whether down to play or out on a outing whether your working, how ever big you get it still wont make your mother sleep till your not tucked in bed. So if at times you feel your lfe is just not going antywhere, that you would rather die than face your problems, what do you do?

You love someone with all your life, yet you have to let that person go, you hurt that person though its tearing you apart within, but you know if you really want to see that person happy you have let go, you have to let them grow. Coz when you had to learn you learnt it the hard way too, so you realize that its your turn to pass the torch and stop being selfish. The essence of love is not being happy with the person you love, but making sure whereever you may be, that person you love is happy. That is love.

So in the end the thing to do is simple yet hard. Coz it?s the simple things in life that matter.So you have to smile no matter what and you have to keep moving on, for your parents who brought you here and did everything for you, without any fear. You have to live, you have work and become a person pf scruples and principles. Coz in the end it doesn?t matter what you have, but what you chose to do with that what you had.After a while you will realize that even when you thought you couldn?t go on, you did and you feel glad you did. We don?t regret the things we do as much as we regret that which we dont do..So next time your heart asks you what to do, do just this, go to your parents hug them tight, and your heart will know you did it right.